“The Giant Leap of Faith”
For decades I heard people say “Let Go and Let God” or “Trust in the Lord”
That’s a lot easier said than done. It’s one thing to trust in the Lord in the small things. Or to encourage someone ELSE to have trust in Him.
But when YOU are asked to make a cataclysmic leap for the Lord, will you?
Will you risk it all for Him?
Walking away from the financial safety net of my full-time job as attorney was downright terrifying.
I was afraid of what others would say, especially my parents. I was afraid that I was just “making up” my calling and that maybe it wasn’t God’s plan for me…and if I was wrong, that I would end up falling on my face.
I was afraid our business would flop and we would have to file bankruptcy.
Looking back, I see just how many lies the Enemy threw at me, in the hopes that I would take the bait and stay firmly entrenched in my comfort zone.
Honestly, I have come to believe that it was only by the power of the Holy Spirit that I was able to recognize those suggestions as lies and walk through the fear barrier.
Here’s how it played out…
For weeks I rehearsed my “quit speech” in the mirror. I typed up my resignation letter, careful to ensure that I didn’t burn any bridges in the process. I prepared myself for the possibility that I would be escorted out the door that day, and not given the opportunity to work the last 2-weeks (thereby not getting those last 2 guaranteed paychecks).
I prepared myself for the anger and disappointment that might come from my boss- given that I had made myself very valuable to the firm– having served as the de facto Marketing Director in addition to having established a successful Estate Planning practice in town.
I was prepared for a counter-offer to maybe become a partner, a temptation that might sideline my plans to quit, because that title really had a nice ring to it…
A few days before I was going to have “the talk” with my boss, a business mentor of ours called us, as asked us if we might like to do a Joint Venture deal to offer our program to her clients. We would make $1,000 per sale at an event on August 4th and 5th.
We had never done a partnership like that…and there was no guarantee that we would make any sales at all. But we figured, “hey, why not?!? It was a tremendous honor to be asked, and it certainly couldn’t hurt to have a chance to make some money after I quit my job.
The big day rolled around, and I remember so clearly, sitting at my desk with my letter in hand, and tears streaming down my face. My heart was pounding in my chest. I prayed and prayed, begging the Lord to stop me if I had heard “the call” incorrectly.
I prayed that He wouldn’t leave me hanging after I took the big leap of faith.
I prayed that I wasn’t making the biggest mistake of my life…
I stood up, with sweat pouring everywhere, walked around my desk, opened my office door and started walking down the hall, letter in my shaking hand. Praying “Lord Jesus, please help me. Be with me. Don’t leave me.”
I knocked on my boss’ door, and he invited me to come in.
“Holy shit! I really have to do this now…” I thought.
I was fairly certain he could see or hear my heart beating out of my chest, it was so intense…as I slid into the seat opposite him.
“Well, you know how, um, Richard and I have our “side business”?”
“Yes,” my boss responded.
“Well, it’s, um, doing pretty well, and we’ve discussed it, and I need to um, go full-time into our business. Here’s my, um, resignation letter, I would like for my last day to be August 1st.”
He looked at me, and said…
“Well, I’m inclined not to accept your resignation letter.”
I hadn’t practiced a response to this answer… I was prepared for yelling, or a curt, “that’s fine, turn in your key.”
“Would you consider an Of Counsel position with the firm?”
I knew what he was talking about, but I thought those positions were reserved for the grey hairs…not associate attorneys like me- 33 years old, and only 8 years of experience…
I would get to get my awesome legal assistant, my office, AND I would just work with the clients I want to… it was an “Eat What You Kill” offer–(that’s how we phrased it in the legal industry). Basically- I got paid only if I brought in business.
Luckily- I was a rainmaker….marketing and sales were my jam. I could bring in the clients… so I agreed on the spot.
On August 3rd, we flew out to Minneapolis for the marketing event, and on August 4th (3 days after I had officially left my job) we made $23,000 from that joint venture.
I don’t know about you, but for us, that was crazy amounts of money. Especially when I only had one guaranteed paycheck left!
God provided for me, and for us.
Not only was I willing to take the leap of faith… I actually TOOK the leap of faith.
God didn’t leave me hanging. My calling wasn’t something “I made up in my own mind” He was there for me, every step of the way.
Looking back, I see how he surrounded me with people that I needed… the Sisters in Christ who could confirm to me that, no, I wasn’t crazy- I was being called.
The books, given to my husband and I, that would serve and confirmation and inspiration.
The sermon series, that God used to teach me how He frequently takes the ORDINARY, the imperfect, even the non-“religious”, the UNQUALIFIED…
and He qualifies them. He prepares them.
As someone once said, God is looking NOT for ability, but for AVAILability.
I was available, and He used me.
4 years later, I even shared the story of this calling in my book, and ultimately have shared the story on stages across the county. But I don’t want to get ahead of myself…
There’s a lot that happened between August 1, 2012 and the publication of my book in 2017. God blessed us abundantly with our business and my Of Counsel position provided a substantial income stream as we continued building our business.
Yet just because the Lord provides in ONE area, doesn’t mean that you get everything you want in life. After I quit my job and went full-time as an entrepreneur I entered into a season of darkness, one that I now dub “The Great Wait”. I’ll share that with you in Part 4.
I was ready to risk it ALL, but that wasn’t the Lord’s plan for me. Much like the story of Abraham and Isaac.
For those who might not know the story… Abraham had a wife named Sarah. Sarah was well past the age of childbearing, yet God promised Abraham and Sarah that they would have a son, and Isaac was born.
Later, to test Abraham’s obedience, God commanded Abraham to sacrifice the boy. Abraham made all the preparations for the ritual sacrifice, but God spared Isaac at the last moment.
Although obviously my law job is nowhere near as massive as offering a son as a sacrifice… I think you see where I’m going with this…I was ready to take a flying leap and the Lord provided me with a safety net- my Of Counsel position with the firm.
Have you been called by the Lord to give up something HUGE? I’m here to remind you of the promise of God from Jeremiah 29:11
“For I know the Plans I Have for You,” declares the Lord, “Plans to prosper you, and not to harm you, to give you HOPE and a Future.”
Continue to Part 4 HERE
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